I, too, am a member of this club. My mother died after a 4 year battle with cancer when I was 16. When she died, I was not as “devastated” as everyone thought I should be. I wasn’t devestated because I never felt she left me. Ever. Some might label that denial, but I don’t think thats what happened. A loving bond between a mother and daughter just can’t be broken. I am having a hard time explaining this accurately without sounding like a cheesy cliche. I just wanted you to know as someone who did lose her mother physically, I never lost her presence or love in my life.