I think Otto might be having an identity crisis. He hasn’t said anything specific about it, but Scarlett changes his name nearly every day and I just feel that this must be confusing. Sometimes she calls him “Sticks” and other times she affectionately refers to him as “Phinneas.” She has spent hours telling him that his name is “Bernice”, and I once caught her chasing him in the backyard with a stick screaming “COME BACK, PROFESSOR!”

In case that thing about the stick alarms you, let me assure you that the professor was having the time of his life.

But really, what’s in a name? An Otto by any other name still farts as much. I guess I’ve been thinking about identity a lot lately, because there is so much wrapped up into what we consider our self, and it’s undeniable that parts of myself are slipping away from me. I’ve never been someone who dwells in the past, at least I wasn’t until I got ALS. Now I look back with a nostalgia typically reserved for someone who has lived twice as long as I have. I have never wanted to go backward, but I would like to go forward differently. I would like to feel more like me.

The writer Gerda Saunders recently published a book called Memory’s Last Breath: Field Notes on my Dementia. I read a review of the book and was struck by the following phrase: Read More>